whoever didn’t accept you – wasn’t (and hence is jealous… – you see, depression is when subconsciously we are angry at ourselves for some perceived failure – whereas being shunned comes from another – this causes a. anger b. jealousy, and as jealousy is a desire, and as all desires are addictions, and as all addictions warp the mind to attain them, and as one of our desires is to be perceived as good, so like hilter (yemach shemoi and lehavdil) the brain comes up with justification (for now you a. can be malicious b. are still good)