There is a book “Victoria Decides To Die” in which the author describes how Victoria, being depressed, attempts suicide; only to maim herself; giving herself a week to live; and there in the hospital, she begins to truly live – she begins to see beauty – Why is it that only when people know they are going to die, can they live? Because until there is a cut off time, we live under the illusion of immortality, and while we are immortal we want, and this desire for whatever has caught our fancy, like the gerbil running indefinitely on his wheel, robs us of the ability to look outside our prison of desire and see what we actually have!