There are three states/ stages, naive – in this stage you are easily conned – Conning – in this stage you are filled with an internal hate though consciously you think you’re god ( this is called narcasitic personality disorder which is a result of narsacim which quite simply means you have been a victim of a narsacist whom because you were naive you trusted and as a narcasitic is fundamentally selfish/ ego greed driven hence while it was in his or her interest they were " loving" though when they needed you not they became malicious, but as this broke your heart/ trust this creates anger and eventually as the pain is too powerful the brain shuts down the neurological connection between allowing you to feel your emotions hence not feeling anger nor love, you too join the adult conning brigade) but throughout both states/ stages, lurking in the background is your Divine side which precisely by through the destruction of your naive identity and eventual perception, discernment and growth, that this hidden potential becomes you