life is actually really simple – but like all things you need the subconscious – subconsciously we have one drive "get my way!"- this is called in Kabbalah midas hanitzachoin – it has no rationality – it is why kings who amassed over centuries (from their parents etc.) treasures would give it all away to win – why did they even need another country…? because the very fact they wanted it, kindled a flame that "if I can’t have it, this is an ego blow…" – we all have this problem – sure, we may not be as stupid – but the moment we think we are entitled…- whenever we do get some kind of superior position, this little demon asserts its ugly face – the consequence, losing your way