In truth there are only three possibilities – the first is that your heart runs your brain and this has two: either you have security and you are not mature, hence your desires create your thoughts (this is why so many in the west are addicts and also are exceptionally naive) the other is that you suffered tragically the maliciousness of those who also, hence in the state of anxiety you become highly focused – though you seem under control, in fact you are afraid of losing control – and the third, if you are so fortunate, you have been somewhat abused, but you have overcome the fear, and with humility, faith and wisdom you march