In truth as my good friend Dr. Fasbinder says, "we justify our justifications" – this really is an awesome dilemma, for our brain is not under our control, rather as empirically and historically self-evident, it merely, like a computer computes whatever you seek – the problem is, we all feel entitled – so the only way to truly be good and not evil! is to feel as the Alter Rebbe writes in the introduction to the primary chapter of Tanya, chapter 32 (heart) "See your body as despicable, disgusting, loathsome piece of rotting flesh, but take incredible joy from the good within your soul!"