I’m going to reveal this may be somewhat controversial but it is highly powerful and that is – just to use an example, I asked myself… actually I asked my ego "what is it that you want?" and it’s base desires upset me so as a punishment – and this is something I learnt from the Alter Rebbe – the author of The Tanya, who says that what hell is, is the punishment for the desires that were not good on Earth for when we feel pain, for that which we’re attracted to because of the pleasure – our attraction turns to retraction – and by being able to sort of threatened myself… it was able to change the ego’s desire and free myself! will see for how long…