I don’t know about your self-image but I do know this, that the greater the respect we give another – and the way we perceive the way they respect us – is the way we respect ourselves… – so if it’s any consolation, in fact it should be a major! that in the eyes of God, and all the Rebbes and Holy Tzaddikim there is not single thing you can do, that won’t make them, continuously have a high level of unconditional love for you