God’s plan!

Nothing shares it best than with a story; so here is the story of my life – I can’t be different from you – in fact we’re all the same – little minor details, like the imperceptible freckles that distinguish between faces, the things only an artist can recall; so we are all unique, but almost a hundred percent similar!

The story of my life is told, because it contains the paradigm for understanding, well I think, the forces that shape us!

My first consciousness, not my first memories which are more like visions of my upshernish, but really FEELING me, are from kindergarten; maybe I felt important, or maybe that’s when we become conscious, or maybe that’s when we remember, but though I met someone who had amazing recall – he remembered me from literally, when he was a baby, and told me he has such recall – I think like most, we begin to remember from about five – but boy do I remember ME, I EXIST, is a definite statement!

My wishes, my ego, was there for sure!

Moving right along, life-altering moments perhaps, are from interaction with people whom are jealous, hence, do what they can to make you feel small so they don’t feel as small; these moments change something, for you begin to perceive yourself somewhat according to the messages you hear from others about you, ironically, these are the moments in which a new worldview shapes –

Moving right along, it was the passing of the Rebbe that really altered my worldview, for the conviction that he was Moshiach, was rudely shattered by the conviction that it must have all been wrong!

Years of research led me to believe there was no other philosophy, and years of atheism led me to believe, existence was meaningless!

But as in all people, I realize now it was all a plan…

For God’s plan is to create a vacuum, in which a newfound faith can flourish, a sheet as white as snow, where ink as red as a rose, can create a new blossom, in a man’s heart!

Discovering “Duties Of The Heart,” “The Gateway To Trust” (a must read for everyone) it opened my newfound belief to something, that though I had been a believer, I had never believed; God is good! God is love!

A new paradigm opened!

And in true God-fashion, as the Baal Shem Tov so precisely teaches, when God calls you home, first he gives you the honeymoon, a blissful understanding; then he takes away this bliss and like the marriage losing its romance, its only commitment that can make you stay; but then a new reality sets in, whereby two learn how to merge – where God and man get to know each other so well, that like twins they can walk together, communicate with one another in ways, no man can see. Sent via my BlackBerry from Vodacom – let your email find you!