Do you know you are Car – and as all cars, you have three speeds- you have going towards – these are the things you want – you have parked – this results from depression, so as you are angry at yourself, you lose all desires ( predicated as they are on self- fulfillment) finally you have "reverse" which is when your self-hate is not induced by internal, rather external shame, hence like Dante’s inferno your soul is burning, hence your need for vengeance kindled, dissociating you from your compassion